BubbsPoetry

Where is your heart my child? Tied up in the world, Somewhere on a pole stamped "If you see me please return to this number" Where everyone takes a turn looking into your soul Changing you a little more each day. Your mouth on a bottle label toxic Your hips giving the glory to lust As guys see you as an exhibit Ooing and awwing as they bet who could get you first Putting your all into a man and none to me. I promise the world doesn't care like I do My love is sweet causing you to crave me more each day. Yet you would rather have the bitter taste of  despair I will gather your heart and make it new. Don't you know that I would do anything for you??? I love you and love you again. Give me your heart my child. It'll be ok

He drives me crazy. That passenger seat in his Pontiac. Where seat belts don't exist, Just Responsibilities that were never developed. A picture of all things abstract. With the gas petal dragging the ground. Don't slow down.. Passing by blurs, Causing everything to be unfamiliar. Besides the hand on my knee that comforts my every being. I am like an addict reaching euphoria. This rush causes my heart to beat fast. Where ever we are going I don't care. As my heart follows, I will be home. Even in a foreign land. Where tongues only create mere sounds. And skin collides. Unaware of my surroundings. As my pupils dilate to his reflection. This must be crazy.

Every image, Replaying so vividly. As I close my eyes, And find you there. Caressing my frame, As if a delicate vase. Taunting my flower, As she blooms on your command. You are the leader. As I follow your que. 1,2.. Please don't stop. You are a weakness, Yet you have given me strength. And you remind me of my beauty, As if to question why doubt ever left my mouth. Your kisses like pillows, Making me wonder if this is a dream. Hoping to awaken by your smile, And the bass in your voice. I promise to never love so deeply again. But you have me drowning. And maybe if you knew, You would come to my rescue. Carry me to safety in your arms. What you do to me is unknown. But I'm fully aware. And maybe I should keep my distance, But there is no place like home.

Let's just act like we never happened. That we never gazed upon each others eyes, and said those words. That at the moment our minds went blank, so the words didn't formulate. Leaving us in silence. With wonderment of what might have been. As they hand us our Grammies.

I know boys love Jay Z, boys like to think that we're crazy. They love to stay in our business, but they never want to listen. Recently I met a good dude, he loved to bring me good food. He told me that I was good food. Even when I wasn't nude. He told me baby we'll be to the end. Good thing we started off friends. This is a crazy time, to be living this here life. But we're going to make it right. So please baby let's not fight. Let's just stay in tonight. So I can hear you, I can hear you. Say my name, say my name. When no one is around you, say Bubbles I love you if you ain't running games. Say my name, say my name. Don't be acting all shady, baby!

Here is the real deal. You caught her in a bad time. She has always loved you to her full potential, But see you caught her when she was at her weakest, yet her strongest. Where her heart was drained, but mentally she was prepared to never hurt again. So she put up a partition and made it see through. So you were there, but not too close. Close enough to see her eyes, and far enough to not cause any tears. Thinking it was the only way to protect her from getting shattered, while bruising herself from stepping on the pieces that were too hard to find. But she loved you as much as she could. She cared, but people remember the bad. And in the midst of trying to protect her, she hurt you. Unaware of damage that she was putting on you from the leftovers of the last guy that called what they had love. But believe me she's sorry. Having to live with the pain of another's as you do a child. Giving birth to dishonesty and having to prove that she's beneath that. And ...

I can't stand when people make assumptions based on the fact that I am a black woman. Hearing me express myself in laughter, as your ears adjust to the morning as you roll your eyes because you're not ready for that blackish today. Running me like a track as you go down the reasons as to why I am inadequate. Thinking that it must be that blackish. They're only good for having babies, ghetto, angry, and sluts. No I am no Mammy. But I do have the instinct to protect what's mine. To care for the innocent and respect those that came before me. And I know that being a mother is a blessing and a job built for those with the toughest skin. So if my melanin provides elasticity, then I am proud to be a warrior. And I feel bad that your own race didn't see that you were fit for the job. No I am not Sapphire. But if raising my voice will get my point across, then I'll be the arrow that shoots. Because I have the tendency to take up for those with no voice. ...

God didn't make a mistake when he made us, yet they try to arrange us. Like a room when they are looking for something new, But we are not objects to get treated as property. Only looking at the surface, As if our greatest treasures aren't within. But I guess they are ignorant to the melanin. As they use colored to mock us, Yet their souls are tainted, Painted. Black as coal as they say, As it only burns on command. Cause they never learned to love themselves. So they treat others with the hate they have for themselves. Never understanding true beauty, And it's a shame, Cause God don't like ugly. Yet like crabs in a bucket they try to bring us down, While we look in the mirror, They turn off the lights. Screaming bloody Mary, As they try to take our innocence, When we've always looked up to Mary. Never liking to see our light, But God lives within us. Our happiness is something we can't let them have. Don't let your soul be tainted....

B.E.A.U.T.Y Being the best me I can be. Beyond everyone's expectations. And not boasting, Because God keeps me humble. And I beware the haters, as they try to beat my pride. B.E.A.U.T.Y Existing in excellence, Exhibiting strength that surpasses tons. Enriching my heart with goodness, Emptying the negative, that has no right living within. B.E.A.U.T.Y Acknowledging that I am not perfect, Yet arranging to be, At least close. And as God resides in me, He begins to administer and assist me into empathizing and loving me. So I can learn to love others. B.E.A.U.T.Y Understanding others. Utilizing my talents in my unique way. Making myself useful and even when I'm unsure. More than usually I keep pushing. And for those that are unappreciative, I smile and keep doing right. B.E.A.U.T.Y Taking the time to travel the world. Even when it's in my own backyard. Truthfully giving back, with no hopes of anything in return. Thoroughly evaluating my temple, ...

I say his name more than I say Hi. So now those that haven't even gazed upon his eyes, Know that they're dark brown, and low. His skin is as golden as fresh baked cookies. And as smooth as fresh churned butter. His smile is as refreshing as sweet tea on a hot day. And his voice, a melody to my heart. Yet I'm over here singing the blues. Cause in realty he is Ivy. Poison to my world. A door.. And he leaves me open, As thieves try to let themselves in. While he won't even walk through. He is the rain, cloud over my head Leaving me wet. The sun as he brightens my day. Candy for my sweet tooth, A cavity.. Having too much, leaving me in pain. Just so that he can be my Oral B. Order in chaos.. The tears when I laugh too hard. The introduction to my conclusion. The motivation as soon as I'm about to give up. The hello to when I'm ready to say goodbye. The oxy to my moron.

Be careful before she softens your heart. With no preparation. So you kick your sympathetic into overdrive, and run and throw your heart into the freezer. Because you think that it'll be easier. Then to deal with the warmth of her love. Cause see you were born in the winter, so you would rather add on layers. Then to be stripped of everything that you have. And for that she is the epitimy. Leaving you naked. Eve reborn. Leaving you only as an atom. With an Adam's apple, as it tightens your throat as you push back the tears. Because you weren't ready to handle a love like hers. And so you lay in bed missing her skin. So soft, like your heart that she has turned. No way to go back, unless you leave your heart in the freezer. Leaving you heartless, yet it still beats for her. She is destruction in the sweetest way. And you weren't prepared. You weren't careful.                  ...

I'm following a leader that doesn't have my full attention. Not to mention, that my legs are getting tired as they start to settle. Sometimes I wonder what I'm doing here? Knowing that I'm only continuing on because of my biggest fear. To be back in a position, where I can't satisfy my needs. So my wants become even more out of reach. I just want nothing more then to follow my dreams. As my face flashes across the big screen. And I promise that it isn't even for the fame, But when you need something to keep you sane. Like how music seems to soothe my soul. And my body moves without warning. And my lips spew noise without a care. And the way my pen glides as if the paper was a lover that just came back from sea. See! That's how you know that you're destined to perform arts. Yet I'm sitting in a class that has phosphofructokinase limiting my rate at to which I would get to my dreams. And I'm craving more sugar for energy. But the fi...

I've always known, That your attraction to me, only ran as deep as a puddle as it first started to rain. Yet you feeled me with "I love you's" Only to be graced with the sweet nectar that unfolds from my flower. Yet never working like the busy bee, That does everything to obtain it's sweet honey. And I fell for it. Thinking you were different, Yet you wore the same shoe as all the others. That took me for granted and caused my heart to grow a little more colder. Call me Elsa, freezing everything over, Yet pretending it doesn't effect me. Cause I was taught to be a strong black woman. To not let a man determine your worth. Keep your head up even when it weighs more than you can imagine. And you had the nerve to always ask me why do I guard my heart. Like a Pitbull, ready to attack as soon as someone crosses my gate. It's because of guys like you. That come in so swiftly, Without sound. Stealing things that don't belong to you, and th...

My liver will handle what my heart can't. Because at the moment my heart doesn't seem to even be adequate enough to pump the blood that flows through my body. So with no blood rushing to my head, I have no common sense to put the bottle down to give my liver a rest. And so I use the liquid in this bottle to cure the pain that resides in my chest. See my heart is fragile. And that's evident by how my heart has shattered under pressure. Of every memory that replays in my mind whenever we are away. And as I remind myself that it'll be ohkai, my heart races as the polygraph shows that I've been untruthful. My heart doesn't know how to deal. So I commend you liver. On the beat down that you have taken due to another. It's as if you've been volunteering as tribute. Oh my Katnis. How selfless of you to risk your own well being. To handle what my heart can't. You turn strong drinks into a new me. As if I was diagnosed with multiple personalities. Sybil, but ...