How To Deal

My liver will handle what my heart can't. Because at the moment my heart doesn't seem to even be adequate enough to pump the blood that flows through my body. So with no blood rushing to my head, I have no common sense to put the bottle down to give my liver a rest. And so I use the liquid in this bottle to cure the pain that resides in my chest. See my heart is fragile. And that's evident by how my heart has shattered under pressure. Of every memory that replays in my mind whenever we are away. And as I remind myself that it'll be ohkai, my heart races as the polygraph shows that I've been untruthful. My heart doesn't know how to deal. So I commend you liver. On the beat down that you have taken due to another. It's as if you've been volunteering as tribute. Oh my Katnis. How selfless of you to risk your own well being. To handle what my heart can't. You turn strong drinks into a new me. As if I was diagnosed with multiple personalities. Sybil, but no longer am I civil. Falling like the day I did when I became in love. I thought that maybe if I was new, my heart could deal. But if I knew, that it would only make me feel. Worse than when the strong content pierced my lips, caused my throat to burn with a chain reaction to my chest. Oh my heart burn, yet I yearn, for more. And more and more, hoping that maybe I'd be able to deal. But my heart. My heart aches with memories, that only become more vivid with each sip. My heart can't take it. So my liver attempts to handle what my heart can't.

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