Envy

I know that jealousy is an ugly trait,
But at this moment I seem to possess it.
So I wouldn't be surprised if everyone pointed and stared,
And laughed at the features God seemed to grace me with.
See she has something that I want.
Yet something I can't seem to get.
Maybe I should forget.
Yet with every moment I'm in its presence,
I yearn for it more.
It disguises itself in clay,
Hardening itself to protect it from the world,
Yet it can't deny its original form.
And she has found a way through.
While I'm slowly chiseling away of the surface,
Hoping to find my diamond underneath.
Leading us to a bright future.
She doesn't deserve it,
I know that I'm not perfect,
But she's not worth it.
Yet she has it....
His heart..
Just call me a deadly sin.

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