Does Love Not Feel?

Does love not feel?
Because half the time it seems to be just a word,
Spewing out of your mouth and polluting my heart.
The word sounds nice illuminating my smile,
But I get discouraged because it only last a while.
And then I'm left with the torment of our memories,
This lack of communication makes me feel as though we're less than friends.
And this cold shoulder is causing me to go numb.
Yet I still try to keep the feelings where they were, but you don't do the same.
Got me wondering if love feels, but it must do.
Cause my heart hurts when I feel the disconnect.
Like we're sprint, but I don't want to change services.
I mean does love not feel for you?
Or is just some expression like hello?
Do you put it on for a show?
Pulling back the curtain as I call your name.
To entertain the world and then later the same,
weakness of our love.
This LOVE causes me to feel insecure,
but does it not feel for you?
Because you continue to smile like nothing has happened.
Sometimes I wish love didn't feel.
Then there would be no  disappointment or tears.
Why does love have to feel?

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